there once was a girl

wow i cant get over the accident with my right eye

ive been having more of my visions since that

ugh right when i thought they had gone away

i dont want to go back to having them

because when i do, i get all depressed and sad and tired

i can feel it all creeping back up on me again

im just so fucking sick of being scared of my own thoughts

i dont want to see them

and hear them

i just want to live a normal life

i dont want to have these urges anymore

i dont want to hurt myself

i dont want to constantly struggle to keep my hands from mutilating myself

i wish people liked me

i wish i wasnt alone

i wish people would just understand me

im so sick of it all

i just want to have friends and someone who cares about me

someone who doesnt care about how crazy i am, and just cares

too bad i fucking push away every person whos ever tried to comfort me

i dont mean to

i miss them

but my life is just becoming a blanket of lies

the me everyone knows is barely even me at all

im so sick　

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WOWOWOOW

HE HAS A FAECBOOK

OHHHHHH GODDDDDDDDDDDDDD

MUST RESIST URGE TO ADD HIM

UGGGGGGGHAGHYUGAUAHGAHHHHHHH

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wow i cant help but feel so sad right now

hes so perfect

his hair

his face

his body

everything is perfect

his little adorable stubble that he gets when he forgets to shave

how fluffy his hair is when it grows out

ugh

i just wish he was mine

i want to be able to look at him in the eyes and smile, knowing that he likes me

….

i think im in deep shit

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ugh im so fucking mad

i never get to go to promstucks

if i could fucking drive myself i would

but its too fucking far away ugh

why must i live in socal

whyyyyyyyyyyy

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I CAN’T DO THIS

I CAN’T FUCKING DO THIS

IM ABOUT TO HAVE A FUCKING ATTACK

I CAN’T FUCKING DO THIS

FUCK

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I got out of bed without fainting

Trried to keep down some water

Bleh

I feel so weak

I can’t type or read anything right now so

I guess ill just sleep

Nighty night

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Anonymous said: My first guess is that it is some rendition of Nazareth's Loved and Lost, but I think I'm going to have to do a bit more searching.

thanks for trying ^u^

ive been looking for it for such a looooong time

im pretty sure its a fairly recent song, though

that might help a bit?

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Anonymous said: Can you describe the song? Perhaps I can help. I am good at finding things.

um it was popular on tumblr on the 14th

it was a sorta electro-swing or jazzy kinda song

it had a main young man singing, and an instrumental background. Nothing fancy

the only line i can remember was “its better to have loved and lost than never loved at all” and something about a backseat

the album art was a picture of a black and white oxford shoe…kinda like a tap shoe

i think it was a pretty long song haha..idk XP

any help is appreciated greatly

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Anonymous said: Please don't be upset. Whatever is going on, it is not the end of the world. You can get through this.

yeah…i know

its just i went through a lot recently

i recently almost lost my right eye and im still scarred from it…just

really really emotionally stirred

and the fact that im so quiet and obedient and all just isolates me from everyone else i know

and idk the name of this one song I like, and i cant find the name of it and its pissing me off because i could really use it right now

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STOP

STOPSTOPSTOPSTOP

I CAN’T

GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME

STOP

PLEASE

JUST GOD PLEASE MAKE IT STOP

GET AWAY FROM ME. GO. FUCKING GO.

UUUUAAGHH

I CAN’T